Calamari anyone?

I know I know
I've posted this before but I bloody feel like doing what I bloody like so everyone SHUT UP PLEASE! Thank you.
Nothing describes how I'm feeling right now better than Alex Garland.
So here here.

" My last attempt was to dive back into the pool. Underwater always had the quantities of a refuge for me. Calming, blinding, deafening.

A perfect escape.

It worked too. Envolping me in anonymous coolness, but in an unavoidably temporary way. Without gills, I had to keep surfacing, and as soon as I surface,

My mind resumes it's circular debates."

Taken from The Beach by Alex Garland